today sch 1st lesson was pe,super tiring and hard.i hate pe lahs.after dat is english gt nothing much.after recess is maths,teacher gave us some work to do while he mark our maths test.den is concert.damn boring,ppl also duno hw to perform.den is pd,talk about the duno wad organisation,den i donate $6 to the needy.after sch go maths teacher classroom to get results,half the class fail,but i passed!gt 12/20!at least im doing better den my classmates.after sch go find ivan at plaza sing,he haven finished buying his new year clothes.he bought boxers,1 pants and 1 shirt i tink?reached home around 6,used com 4 awhile den go reunion dinner at uncle hse.i go dere just sit at 1 corner anti-social,cuz no mood.den cousins,uncles and aunties come and ask mi hw my new sch.all i said was "huh?","ok","duno".went home alone as gt slight headache.depressed mood.

Why do ppl expect things of me?when i talk wif relatives,they say things bout acs,good things and they think im happy dere.but nobody noes the truth.i hate that place.whats the big deal if ur in acs?it is just a name oni,a bloody name.my parents said when i go dere,my life will become better,but its actually the complete opposite of that.it got worse.my parents make mi transfer cuz my result last year "nt up to thier expectations".there are somethings in this world that are more important den results and good grades.why do ppl expect all these from me?i should lead my life the way i wan to.my father said that he last time nvr fail any subject.so what?im not him.my parents wan mi to get the kind of results they got,but im not them.will i always be seen as thier son,or as myself?do i deserve all these crap?what haf i done wrong?this world sux.there is no such thing as true happiness...

Friday, February 16, 2007 ; 9:52 pm